I Cry on the INSIDE!

I sit alone missing the good ol' times, and wanting to reconnect but mentally I can't bring myself to forget. I remain to cry on the inside, life still continues, and everything remains constant. Seven years of relationship, suddenly the decision doesn't seem to be the best decision....So, I cry on the inside...trying to remain strong but lord knows, I'm hurting and always crying on the inside...I guess this would be buyers remorse but in the reverse. Strong but weak...missing but still there...how funny life works? I hope in a since that the crying stops because at this point I'm M.I.A. Mentally. I try to stay busy to keep my mind off things but still at the end of the day I come home and see the "missing". I need to study for the LSAT but mentally I'm so F--Ked....I'd rather have my ass kicked then go through the pain...But without struggle there is no success.