WTF........GAS is too HIGH!

WTF.....How is the GAS so Fu*king HIGH? How do you enjoy life like you use too when you can't drive any were....Gas, is just too high....I like to go places and see things but not with these monkey a$$ prices....Your Command and Chief needs to get the fu*k out the big house so a real Ni**a, can run this sh*t......GAS is too HIGH!

What Is LOVE?

What is Love? How do you define it? Is it part of life?

I can't define Love because true love is undefineable....People fall in an out of love all the time but true love is laced with in the fiber of the soul. This kind of love is undescrible. Now ask yourself have you really been in love? If your aswer is yes, are you still in Love if so, what are you doing to keep the Love going? I've been in and out of Love and my fiber, soul is currently deeply loved....How do you define LOVE!

Making it BIG! BITCH!!!!!

When I hit 30, I started to reflect on what I have done and what I really want to do. I've been a police officer, youngest chief in the state of Kentucky for a bite, Associates, 2 Bachelors, and Masters. I'm involved in the community and involved in my Fraternity. I have yet to be satisfied with my accomplishments because I feel as if I'm not complete. I know what I really want to do but, the problem comes with Sacrifices. Nothing worth having comes without sacrifices and the people who have it sacrificed so much to obtain that "IT". I want "IT" and know I have to sacrifice to get IT. When you want something so bad you are driven to get it....Everything I ever wanted I worked hard to get and I mean hard...Nothing came easy. So, I know this won't come easy either....Before I'm 35 I will be in a feature film! I want to be an ACTOR in Hollywood. Making it Big BITCH!

Get it NOW! No day is Promised!

Young and trying to get it now before I can't. It's a true struggle and now one can understand unless you're in the struggle. Having a full time job "Paying the bills" and trying to pave the way for a better life. Sometime you don't know if your head is your ASS or your ASS is your head. This shit is stressful, Mad stressful! Education is a building block for Corporate America but while attending school they don't teach you how to make your own money. They only teach how to work for someone else. There is no school that teaches you how to make real money$$$$$. This training is the hard knock life and school is always in session. What life holds is truly a mystery but is already defined by the almighty! Ask and you shale receive.

I Cry on the INSIDE!

I sit alone missing the good ol' times, and wanting to reconnect but mentally I can't bring myself to forget. I remain to cry on the inside, life still continues, and everything remains constant. Seven years of relationship, suddenly the decision doesn't seem to be the best decision....So, I cry on the inside...trying to remain strong but lord knows, I'm hurting and always crying on the inside...I guess this would be buyers remorse but in the reverse. Strong but weak...missing but still there...how funny life works? I hope in a since that the crying stops because at this point I'm M.I.A. Mentally. I try to stay busy to keep my mind off things but still at the end of the day I come home and see the "missing". I need to study for the LSAT but mentally I'm so F--Ked....I'd rather have my ass kicked then go through the pain...But without struggle there is no success.

You Better BLOW that shit OUT!

I'm Back, Yes indeed, and all I can say is "YOU Better BLOW that Shit OUT"!!!!!

Yes, it's a Jamie Foxx Term, but it reflects modern day life. When your dealing with issues in life and they build up; this will cause a chain reaction, creating the body to protect it's self. This is part of self preservation, so you will some form of release. I'm in my own living hell as many of us are but mine has so many variables. This has lead to this particular Blog "YOU Better BLOW that Shit OUT". I'm going this way that way and need time for self.....a break from people just for alittle while...to recharge the battery....I need to find my passion and pour my attention and heart into this....As, you look inside yourself and find the ultimate peace or some form of peace: Can you truly be peaceful without the passion? I supply information to friends but I'm in need of the light myself. The almighty will never lead us down an incorrect path but allows us to make decision which shapes our lives. I've made good decisions and bad decisions but yet I stand true to test the time and make my mark in this world. I'm a millionaire in a check to check society based on supply and demand. I'm learning about me daily and the almighty is making me stronger to deal with the next chapter of my life. I will beat the house and "BLOW THAT SHIT OUT"!!!!!

"Growning up is Hard to Do"

People, do you remember when you were a kid?
Do you remember how life was and knowing that there weren't any real problems as a kid?.....
Do you remember saying I can't wait till I get older?
I remember this like yesterday, but what is not told to you is when you get older, that you get Grown problems.......But the best thing about being grown is being grown.......regardless of the issues or problems we face as grown ups, life continues to be a learning/testing ground for the betterment of self. Life lessons which in a day to day allows us to grow an advance our mind, body, and soul. Now don't get me wrong there are some people who don't grow up but the majority of us have too. "Growing up is Hard to Do".

Good Day

Yo, What do you consider a good day? What do you consider a bad day? How do you judge that day? I've had a good day doing nothing at all...Just chillin and working on me....That's a good thing working on me and keeping your brain occupied.....I'm just trying to clear my head an keep it moving which is the best thing........Airforce, Law School, Corporate Job, Management, RD, what is best for me? Don't know…….But all in all it is a good day….What makes it a good day is prayer and the God that watches over me…..I'm blessed and I am GOD's Solider!....

"Got Friends"

Yo, you got a friend I can barrow....LOL...Don't need anymore of those...Unless you want the Knife in the back...."this is what we call sheep in wolf's clothing" Yeah, that's right sheeps in wolves clothing...WOW....How do you take a blow when you find out someone you trusted has stabbed you in the back....what would be your first instinct? What would you do if you saw them in the street? How would you react...? Clearly, be successful! Life is to short and true friends are few and far between........."Got Friends"

What to do Now....

1,2,3,4,.....5......what to do...what's on my mind is deep and thoughtful....but yet....my heart still continues to be heavy.....People deal with alot in through there on way but yet still make it....Even with an education life doesn't change because it's based on the right time, right place. People make the difference in your life and the people that you surround your self with impact the changes in situations.....I'm NO ANGEL, at all, but then again who is? Are you an Angel? Do you not have Skeletons in your closet? Are you the best citizen? Do you not find ways to cheat on your taxes each year? Right...No Humana is perfect! People make mistakes...The difference is the people you have around you that will make you or break you...this support system or individual of backers will help guide you to the right situation...this will make a big difference....but when your out there like Adabesee...It's a wrap!!!!!!! Lessons learned...Keep to yourself! Trust I would know! ......YO

Kan’t Stop the RAIN! "One Monkey Don’t Stop No SHOW"

Yeah, Just been dropped like a egg and I feel splatted ....Its all good...Just need to re-evaluate life and my situation....One thing people..."One Monkey don't stop no SHOW,
D & N"....I was talking to some monkey people there sorry....Well, looking at another age of life and still need to figure this thing out...If you are in the job and situation you enjoy then great for you, but if your not, please take a second to re-evaluate your life and your situation because there isn't any reason you shouldn't be happy or enjoy what you are doing....Life is way to short.....I looking at what makes me happy and the two things that makes me happy is T.V. "Acting and Law School" So, next question is what are you "ME" doing to make that happen? Answer Scarifies...........